dear mom you know I miss you I never meant to be the one you trusted in confided all these issues yet here I am since seventeen with everything against you telling you how bad it is and how I'm gonna miss you and yet you took your life from me like I had something against you with everything I meant to ya drugs became my friend to I promised you I finish school I just didn't think it would end soon with all the cards your dealt how the joker in my hand to when all I ever wanted was to try and understand you you left before my time so I cut my wings to save you and everything I learned think the game itself i think had played you I lost the game myself thinking i could make a clear view dear love you know I miss you I never meant to be the one you trusted in when I had all these issues yet here I am since 26 with everything against you telling you how mad I am and how I must protect you and yet you left put me on block like I hadn't been your friend too how's drugs and all of them doing man I wish I had some spend too I promised you I change I just didn't think you'd change too with all the cards I'm dealt how the joker ring your hand too when all I ever wanted was to try and understand you you left before my time so I cut my wings to save you and everything I learned think the game itself i think had played you I lost the game myself thinking i could make a clear view dear fam you know I miss you I never meant to be the one to break your trust you know I never meant to yet here I am since I was born I still can't comprehend you telling you the life I lived and everything I planned too and yet you said that you'd be there these mirrors become my friend too took my entire life for me to try and not neglect you I promised you how couldn't you just to up and go and leave too with all the cards we dealt how the joker in my fam too when all I ever wanted was to try and understand you you left before my time so I cut my wings to save you and everything I learned think the game itself i think had played you I lost the game myself thinking i could make a clear view and every tear I shed so if I see before I see you then I'm sorry except I took revenge and I'm sorry cuz I missed you heavens gates ain't mean for weakness so if I see before I see you then I'm sorry except I took revenge and I'm sorry cuz I missed you heavens gates ain't mean for weakness and every tear I shed so if I see before I see you then I'm sorry except I took revenge and I'm sorry cuz I missed you heavens gates ain't mean for weakness