talked to nas/ and got myself a gun/ smoked with snoop/ and I coughed up half my lung/there's only caskets where I'm from/ and the passing of the drum/ it fastens to a bum/ drinking on the whisky rum/ It leaves a twitch in him/ up at seven am/ till the teller says when/ liquid potion/ drains emotions/ until you're back for more/ life's a tug of war/ and I'm packing glocks/ cuz in this admission/ I feel my wisdom rott/ rigamortis/ but life is gorgeous/ take a look and see/ im hoping they remember me/ and I don't od in some trap house/ forgetten and lost/ with my mad mouth/ but i gott slow it down / my mama needs me now/ I think more than ever/ im just praying the lump in her brain will get better/ God/ she was there for me when nooone else was/ just a lost soul/ in sad state/mama passed me a card/ I seemed to relate/ it was this story of a person giving up/ but right around the corner/God was showing his very love/ and I held onto that card for bad days/ sad days/ in-between days/ I wanna feel life again/ excited by the sun rays/ and the ocean waves/ so that poem I saved/ is like a piece of me/ this art/that attracted the blackness/ needs a lift/ or a principal practice/ to give a little sunshine/ watch that monarch butterfly/ see my nephews play outside/ for hours at a time/ brought me so much joy/but my family up and left/ that's the reason I'm depressed/I need his holiness/ to get me back on track/ cuz in all honesty it's haunting me/ so God please remove these spirits/and nestle up above me/ cuz I was told as a youth only you can judge me/ and I believe that there/ that's why I'm gripping onto cruxifies/ thinking of plenty things I have to say in my final minutes/ witness the demolition/ then the rebuild/ if any man can heal/ I know that he will/ and builld me back stronger/ so I can last longer/ giving love to hopeless/ so find your path/ cuz I know this/ and its true/ life is over in a flash.