listen up i gotta lot to say... a lot on my mind... my momma don't love me my daddy done raped me none admit their sin tho but they say pray to God well he's the only father i got I'm the first born already worn I'm undone it all plays on rerun i got ptsd i just wanna be free i can't get out of my head but it's time to go to bed drug me again touch me again and see what happens. I'm faded, underrated I'm the prodigal daughter never coming back though I'm all alone hey hey hey watch your tone they say hey hey hey don't show any emotion babe keep the crazy in keep her hazy and drinking maybe she won't see again oh she leaving again oh she on something again they made me, they hate me why can't anyone save me no one can save me maybe one day I'll rise but not tonight. father father, you've forgotten me but i never forgot what they taught me those aren't my parents, they crooks, it ain't fair. they don't care. I'm simple minded, a little blinded i have so many fears, i cried so many tears 27 fucking years they don't give shit, i don't give a shit i just wanna stay lit but walkn contradiction. cuz it's fiction, I'm sober almost a year now they all thought I'd fail it's just my mind that holds me back it's the way i act like this place ain't my home it ain't my home father when can I come home naw i don't want to die today maybe some day maybe soon day doomsdays? I'm just sitting here waiting while they still hatin and gaining on my wealth but no one cares about my mental health I'm not for sale, can't you tell? i dress like a boy, to keep away the danger so far so good so close to the hood but here is where I'm understood.