love is a disease it's the cage & it's the keys it's gives rage & brings peace it gives strength makes you weak in the knees it keeps you awake & helps to go to sleep it's a bandaid but it cuts deep love is a disease trust me its Cmk & I'll play the hand dealt but don't try tell me that life is beautiful after I had to bury dad at his funeral askin' god why he have to go so soon I'll never be able to make up lost time crying as I listen to Cats in the Cradle Little boy blue & the man in the moon no silver spoon or lining & my mental health been declining confined in my mind it is like a typhoon of emotions feels like drowning in a ocean no life guards I know lifes hard i tried being light hearted but it's getting to heavy already lost my grandpa & aunt Betty wasn't ready to lose him to who knew Christmas of 2020 would be the last we spend together i got him a stupid packer sweater he got me new shoes & a scapebook filled with pictures of all the packer games he took me too can't even open it cause then I'd have to look at you i never thought I'd have to look at you in a casket but I had to half awake the day I got the bad news didn't know how to react that's alot to unpack & i never moved out dad ment everything to me that's alot to lose at least I got a new house right fuck life I'm a loser with no lover lost my dad at least I do have my mother if I ever lose her that would be the last straw I'd go to NASA steal a shuttle & blast off i been suffering from depression stressing about financial troubles & struggle in over my head suffercate will I ever make it out of hell I won't hold my breath & no role model left you where my idol no Simon Cowell all I want to do is throw in the towel under pressure like I'm David Bowie I've lost the person who knows me better then anyone else one of two who bothered to help whenever I'd need it & all I ever wanted to do is make him proud now he will never get to see me succeed in life love is a disease but it's also the thing that keeps you alive & my mom is my world so god take me instead like Tim McGraw said don't take the girl cause I been involved in way to many funerals next time please make sure that it's mine I'm ready to make the sacrifice meet dad again in the after life & they say when we pass away we go to a better place so mom don't cry if I die i'll see you soon CmK love is a disease it's the cage & it's the keys it's gives rage & brings peace it gives strength makes you weak in the knees it keeps you awake & helps to go to sleep it's a bandaid but it cuts deep love is a disease trust me I love you Ernie R.I.P.