love or pain it's all the same I hate playin games throwin dirt on my name you tell me stay in my lane you tell me im not the same you tell me I'm strange feel like I'm losin myself feel like I'm needing help feel like I'm hurtin my health feel like I'm hurtin myself feel like like relapsing fel like collapsin I was hurtin under the surface searchin for purpose replacing pain with a purchase stayin high cause I'm nervous takin myself the furthest away from myself drinking every bottle on shelf I could sense my innocence being taken ever since certain incidents life is a mess in no