DIS EASE I hate that I'm your target you fucking plan your attack on instead of your fucking partner in crime why am I always the one you set out to destroy huh?!? Me and you against the world? Right?!? Fuck!! Heather your the only one that can get to me like this! I'm out of my mind You fucking win I'm psychotic and God knows your perfect... I'm out.. Love and Life are just punch lines keepin you occupied till you hit the flat line... Gimme that cracker and pour me some of that wine cause it's just aabout due time To be judged for all of this, it's meaningless, enduring the sorrow and pain just searching for bliss that dont exist!!! God if your out there please show me what I miss! I'll never get it It's my fault and I admit it Fuck what you say!! Don't wanna hear it! Avoiding the questions like He will make an exception if I don't hear the lesson. So I procrastinate slowing, delaying ever knowing, not reaping or sowing... Paralyzed forced to watch as my whole world starts emploding Understand the concordance But God she is gorgeous, My heart can't afford this! I guess this is your plan, plenty in the sea But God, DAMN God that was my fish. I know shes not worthless, You took her cause with her My self worth would be demonished It's hard to let go, harder to hold on though She drags me behind her in tow I just want her to know I won't go there alone Just tell me where I need to go I keep fallin but Damnit IM Tryin I hope you don't mind if we arrive short of time but God when we knock don't look at the clock just know how hard that we fought In faith for Your name we endured alot Please don't make me quit ...without her Im clearly unfit Can't hear you...I'm waitin, I'm right here, I'm waiving Im yelling.... Oh yea? It's good? Says You! Just sayin... I'm Not surprised by the silence Worlds full of violence Clash of the Titans Spiritual war Fighting Giants Yet still we expect Him to fight all our battles inside us Your busy I know, Im fine, just go Feels guilty being needy So Ill sit quietly bleeding Serving the blind while Enduring their beating Honestly speaking It's getting harder to beleive That life has a meaning In a world so deceiving Trying to be righteous Feels more like a contest All I can suggset Is keep doing my best test or no test No guilt on my chest Nevertheless The scariest thing I'll ever confess is Eternity wihout her is something I'm willing to miss... AMEN!