Letting Go Of Hollywood

Welp, I couldn't make it in Hollywood guys. At least I gave it my best shot! 🎥🤷🏻 Lyrics:  falling on my face I'm in a dark place today There's rain clouds following every move I that make  If something doesn't change  The light night strikes are gonna claim me  I'm at the plate but Im striking out every fucking day  I'm trynna ball out but instead I found a perfect pitch  A swing n a miss, there's no rehabilting him The scars on my arm are looking like a fuckin zebras twin  Fuck the opposition my greatest true enemy is  Me Weathering every storm that I bring Why the fuck can't I pick up the phone whenever I hear it ringing  If you're leaving another voicemail I probably won't hear it I've been stuck in my head battling off demons Begging forgiveness  Do you know the feeling of becoming the one thing you said you wouldn't? That pushing shoving shits not gonna prove them that you love them Now look at yourself, the spitting image of your father  Now I see why that motherfucker didn't bother But every molecule, that I've got Has been talking And, muttering softly when my eyes are shut at night  They have been Nudging me further   Filling my head up with all these words  I'm not a devilish person but I know there's hell on earth. that perfect picture  That's the one that I'm trynna get Spitting on rap fame but no I haven't found it yet  Yelling at the crowd is anybody listening Or am I gonna fowl out before it ever really begins All that I see,  Is a life that's full of memories  What  do I gotta do to find a home that welcomes me?! Whys it seem those happy scenes are always out of reach Maybe I just couldn't afford the features finders fee Sorry momma but I still ain't got a deal yet starting to get scared that it's time to find a new skill set getting sick to my stomach, the thought of stoppings Never come up  I've had some run ins with hopelessness  Really hope that it's not gonna be one of them wanna go back to those days I was playing with those coloring books  Back in the days when your parents were still married   Things were good! Everyone wanna go and tell me that I gotta stop and just let things go  Cause I've fallen flat before when it takes over  Then I harm people I'm sorry and I wish I could go back and answer for it But I promise that I've hurt myself the most with all this bullshit  It's hard to focus, yeah it's always in my head roaring  At 4 in the morning, im fidgeting trying to ignore it I never can  another therapy session A page full of writtens, they're the same if youre paying attention man  And no I'm never gonna quit.. I just wish that is wasn't this hard to get some real recognition  Everybody knows I put my whole heart in this  I'm sick of bartending I just wanna go and quit  Tell me what my fortune is the rags or the riches  I just wish I could live a life without this resistance  Goodbye Hollywood you've really taken a lot from me I couldn't make it amongst the fakes with my honesty  I've got my briefcase  yeah it's full of scripts  But I'm walking down the street with my thumb out and yea it's lifted  But uh Its alright I better get used to being an outcast Because I only spit the truth man and actors don't like that  looking for greener pastures  I'm Always smoking the right grass  Licensed to kill like 007 when a mic passes ... Love y'all