Really heartbroken this time!

I said I'm really hurt in this time if you don't feel it ya damn sure better here it in this ryme. the clock's ticking and running out of time from this day to another day through another day I'm losing my mind. in some way ugh like tomorrow per say, my bestie actually better be on the grind. stacking Mackin, baking cake for my fines. cuz lately I've been lazy laying back slacking, acting like nothings happening Well I'm not doing fine. So to say realistically in reality the technicality is I'm not living right. The mother fucking fact of the matter is I'm thick headed like batter getting whipped feeling sadder slipping, trying-climbing this ladder of life. I learned my lesson . Gained some tools for my protection. That are impressive, from surving 6 months of out patient and its determined. That ill be determined, to live out the rest of my life right! Like I wasn't an addict but was addicted to addictive substances. That were un predictable in predicting how fast I was killing myself day to night. day to night. day to night. Im really hurting this time. play a voicemail here. Call after call ring after ring night after day day after night cant you hear me calling confessing my sin. What I feel within is really killin me man.... its really.....really~Really, It be really killin me man, killing me man, it be killing me man...dam..... if I don't see it and nobody gives me the heads up on where it be at will I realize whether I rely on another There is a sign That there's a sign. God I got it Glad I got it Its like a bad habit you're fucking blind to see you have had it. Reality can I get a hold of it. It's gravity can I grab it. Take control of it. Like a PlayStation controller and control it. Before it's too late. Cuz I'm baked and I lose it. Acting foolish Like a childish kid. For heaven's sake and he'll not to be created. I bet a buck up and face it. like as if they say Today's the world's poker face championship. So I better play my cards with good fair gamenship. Wisely betting every chip. Like it be my next breath of fresh air to live. I said I'm really hurtin this time If you don't feel it ya dam sure better hear it in this rhyme. The clocks tickin away I'm runnin out of time From this day to today on threw another day I said I'm losin my mind losin my mind Call after call ring after ring night after day. Day after night. ~