Eulogy

I was afraid of how my dreams showed she was using me, everyday confusing me I'm missing how we used to be. All the years would start to fade away i lived them stupidly, remember it was you and me but now i write my eulogy. Cuz I hate when it all happened i was happy but it became tragic, i was at it then turned an addict with smashing women her reaction. Was valid because of her actions I'm backed into a corner smacking, my knuckles to the wall with madness. In my heart i feel a bunch of sadness, but I passed it like I'm quarterbacking my fractions though it was on a mattress. When i had it I got alot of practice, in the batting cage smoking on the traffics. Walking in traffic tryna get to Zaxby's make my stomach happy, i wasn't making my woman happy knowing she was hanging with some nigga Jackson. That's when I started rapping when to sipping on vodka, gripping her neck now I look like my father. I still remember we used the same locker, but over the years I been needing a doctor. Realizing we got us a child together we gotta provide together, i can survive the weather go walking the nile together. Probably walk a million miles together but i doubt that my life will make it, the amount of patience that i need on a daily basis. I can't prevent what the Lord has created, i am content with the world i was placed in. Going to heaven is like a vacation but still imma pray that my children can make it. Planning to help them achieve greatness with this amount of time I am living lately