Battling Pounding this beat with nothing but truth The brain may be a dangerous thing to waste but yet depression, worrying, stressing, anger, living in this mindset to feel belittled picking up pieces as I go. No I don’t have things mapped out even if it’s starts living day by day. Battling Battling Battling Battling on the inside yet can’t find my way out, So many thoughts on chooses I make to make sure I do what’s right yet keep choosing the opposite on how I feel. Wanna live the way I wish I can but there is the inner side man who’s not my flush which keeps me from being weak yet I’m wanting to by pass and not care anymore Lord this human being I am is lacking sense and keeps being pulled in to the thoughts of this battle I can’t seem to win. When things start going right yet it’s begin to fall apart all over why do my tribulations feel like a Heavy burden. Gotta keep my sanity at times I’m too under pressure. Stop I scream inside I can’t take these thoughts anymore, just a moment of silence I wanna live in. Deep breaths, meditate or just pray that’s what suggested, prayer does work I agree. Lord why do my faith I battle with the most and can’t seem to put the most effort in as I once have as a child. If I would have known being an adult would have me second guessing I would ask u too Lord to keep me young at least my understanding wasn’t beneath me. I look for u too reach out to grab my hand and yet still searching for many answers. This life is questionable at times but Lord I know u still with me.. no matter these thoughts I’m never alone cause this battle is deep. Batttling