Jason Hogue

Me Vs Me (prod by Beats With Hooks) - Living with anxiety and depression

got a hollow tip in the chamber and I'm thinking about letting it go - I can't seem to get along with strangers so I suggest that you just go - Don't mean to put you folks in danger that's the reason I don't leave my home - No way to predict when my moods changing till the moment I explode - PTSD I don't want ya sympathy - Suicidal so I wouldn't be standing next to me - Diagnosed with depression side of anxiety - Like a ghost my complexion demons inside of me - Like em close while I'm stressing only ones that ride with me - Finest close I'm impressing but I hate society - Blindness grows I be stressing life can be so frightening - Self righteous hoes try to bless me gone as fast as lightening - I'm just tryna find a way out - Feel like this movie has been played out - I ain't saying this to gain clout - might just go andblow my brains out Hook Verse 2 Just no way to see my next enemy will be - you can trust and believe my next enemy is me - Must escape this mistake of bad mentality - Just in case my mind state hasn't reached totality - When your own mind is a prison it makes it so hard to succeed - Feeling blind but have visions of achieving all my dreams - write these lines with precision but have such low self esteem - yeah I'll smile for an instant in my head all I hear is screams - I try so hard to be consistent but this disease is hard to treat - these damn demons are persistent they impossible to beat - I cause my own afflictions but this ain't how I want to be - if my life is a movie then my tears are poetry Hook Verse 3 I'm just tryna find a way out But these sessions have been played out I ain't saying this to gain clout Might just go and blow my brains out -Just no way to see my next enemy will be - you can trust and believe my next enemy is me - Must escape this mistake of bad mentality - Just in case my mind state hasn't reached totality Social Anxiety Here are some things we do in public to pacify our anxiety in public. 1. Pretend to be on our phone so nobody approaches us. 2. While at work will take more frequent bathroom breaks to be alone for some time. 3. If somehow convinced to attend a social gathering will utilize the bathroom as a safe zone to hide from people. 4. Many of us are smokers and will use a smoke break to get away from people. 5. Some of us have extremely short fingernails because we're constantly biting them. 6. Some of us pick our nose during high anxiety moments. This can start at an early age so if your child has a tendency to be digging for gold often, try to be gentle when correcting this behavior. 5. A child may not want to give up their pacifier because of anxiety or keep a safety blanket. 6. Some of us resort to using drugs to cope with our anxiety. 7. We may try to find excuses to run errands to get away from certain situations. May say something like "We're going to need more chips, I'll run to the store and get them." 8. Go out to eat just to ask for to go boxes before your food arrives because there is too many people there. 9. We may miss out on important things like spending time with our children at the park because it's too crowded. 10. Drop out of school or college. 11. Miss mandatory meetings for work. 12. Lie about having plans when invited to do something. 13. Take several showers a day. 14. Wash our hands repeatedly just to have a reason to go to the bathroom. 15. Constantly worry about the way you walk or the way you sit. 16. Will wear earbuds or headphones. 17. Wear a hood and/or sunglasses. 18. Grind our teeth. 19. Worry about how people perceive us and if they think we're weird or awkward. 20. Extremely quiet or severely chatty and ramble about nothing just trying to fit in. 21. Not answering phone calls or replying to texts. 22. Repeatedly checking dates or addresses. 23. Panic attacks 24. Tightening of chest, pounding heart, shortness of breath, headaches I'm sure there are many more signs and symptoms not listed so if you know of any please leave a comment. Follow for follow and sub for sub if you would be so kind to check out my YouTube channel. I 100% listen to every track I judge and give positive but honest feedback so please take the time and do the same. My YouTube channel is @southernhustleclick and if you do subscribe go check out my playlist titled TWISTED BEATS. All 203 beats I posted are free for non-profit use for all my subscribers and if you want exclusive rights to any it's only $25 and I will remove the beat from my channel.