What I'm about to says Not gonna make since But if you could just Give me a little patience I'm gonna try to explain

What I'm about to says Not gonna make since But if you could just Give me a little patience I'm gonna try to explain this I wanna be home I wanna be alone But when I'm alone Something feels so wrong I often think being by myself Will truly help But being by myself Feels like hell A constant battle A tug o war I need space But when your not here I need your love more. It's so hard to explain The malfunction in my brain I wanna suffer in silence  But want you to ease my pain You think that I don't wanna see you But that's not the case Because when I'm with you My heart starts to race It scares me to the point I need to pump the breaks So afraid of crashin I forget to enjoy the ride Before you judge me I need you 2 see both sides I want you next to be Yet I Wanna go hide These voices in my head Telling me I'm better off dead I try not to listen to what they say Because everything is not ok