Eclipsed my Son (Fuck your maybes)

As I look up to the sky, I realise, that I didn't even open my eyes, or my mind, to take in the sins of every thing and undetstand that the love that I feel can't be real if the one and the things that it's for, are always at war, and it's impossible to breathe, or even to sleep, cos it makes my skin creep, how I loved you so deep, and you kept lying to me, 'bout how you fuckin' feel... How can it be real? ...I don't wanna feel this way anymore ...I don't wanna be this way anymore Beggin' my forgiveness then abusing your promises andcyrustbis lay in ruins then you judge me and walk away. Sped away in a stranger's car All too familiar... Once a week, you leave and come back to me Will I be a Dad today? Yes? no? fuck your maybes! Chosing your will over your unborn baby's Not caring about my mental health For worrying and wanting you, say I am controlling Lying, cheating, fighting, drinking, all whilst pregnant, which you now deny. After changing my life, after taking my time... away I wanna take my life... away She tried to take hers the other day. Ran away then said where was I anyway? She left on Valentine's, the day my Mother died, then returned but I got burned again She took my heart and stamped the last beat out of it Now I don't care about my life, it's fucking shit And I might be done with it It's a fuckibg waste of effort, a waste of love, a waste of time, a fucking waste #2022 #hot #rap #firsttime #witten #freetime #hiphop #new #rapfame #dopetracks