try no more

i just wanna close my eyes i just need to get high i don't wanna try no more i dont wanna try no more people pass i stay in my zone and look the other way i hope none of the them will say to me how was your day lady i cant even breathe with all this pain in me its a struggle every day lately like life is breaking me and making me want to just lay myself down i hate the sound of silence because its filled with memories of violence and pain my brain is sick from it all makes it impossible for me to fall in love makes it hard for me to trust. I musta lost myself out there sometimes i wonder if God still cares does he hear my prayers i stare up to the sky and scream cry myself to sleep its so deep in me i dont need another friend just trying to pretend that they care about me when in reality they are the enemy can't let them get close to me any time i let my guard down and let a man around they bring the hounds of hell on their heels trying to steal my last little bit of peace they feast on my flesh until theres nothing left of me just a mess , not the woman i used to be please just let me sleep i dont wannt try no more i dont wanna try no more im a beast, im diseased, i feed on controlling any little thing i please blowin trees its a breeze freeze my feelings because i dont like wheeling and dealing sorting the fake from the real one better to just feel numb a little spun higher than the sky fuck love i aint tryin no more. give and give and give some more somebody tell me what the fuck for only to be cut down to the core makes me wanna settle the score youre not worth losing myself anymore fuck love ....