Im tired of ppl lying Saying that trying Seen at my lowest But why didnt you try then Always say im violent cant keep my pain in Silence Trying to hold it in But i feel like im dying Try to hold my pen And express why im crying Getting too old I know I Gotta make it before my time end So bold in these streets I might die before then Got a soul that aint weak Cuz i keep my pride in Feels like i gotta fight for Everything i get But i give all that i got Why cant i just get respect Break my back For ppl who wanna break my neck Treat em like gold And they treat me like a check Im so tired In this bitch I might get into a wreck Im so high up in this bitch Just trying to forget How you lying to my face And put me threw these test Always crying to my face And saying you have my best But you acting like a snake So i stay up on tha deck Wish i had a drake id Just put one threw my chest These bitches so fake Like tha plastic on they chest Feel pressure on my chest Im drowning. Bitch out of breath So many dark thoughts In my mind I gotta put that shit too rest I gotta Ieave this place alone And brody move on to tha next I gotta find a better home And then i really start to flex Better leave that boy alone When im cruising in them jets I got that money on me nigga i aint need these hoes at best I gotta pole and i gotta vest Brand new money too invest Feels like im surrounded by trash I cant see threw all this mess I Cant trust all these woman Ill just put love on tha shelf I cant deal with all this drama When i cant even deal with my self I cant heal up my heart This is shit bad for my health When you peel me apart Just for being myself Should have kept it real from tha start Instead of lying to yourself Chilled that cold heart I aint never seen it melt Had to say goodbye to Someone i love You dont know how that felt Had to tell myself you aint tha one When i feel like im lying to myself At heart im a lion so why tha fuck am i Crying to myself