Tell Me (23:04:03)

So you all really want to know What I’m going through day by day Well Every step I take I’m still in this changing state I’m not getting any younger I only decide my fate decisions will be the entire outcome on all my on going mistakes The lies I seem to tell myself Every day I new this was going to be a long road but their are speed bumps sharp turns never ending roads this staircase I walk on feels like it weakens my bones cracked glass pavement with no definition sidewalks with no exit even when I try to be strong have my own opinions I seem to still be in the wrong Exhausted exhaled all my breath to let you all know I’m going to maintain all my dreams dedicate my heart and soul in every song writing is the number one thing that keeps me from disengaging from the meltdowns the anger hardcore depression you need to let them feelings out we all have our own battles your not alone feels like life is black and white with no meaning stuck in the snowstorm blindsided stuck in the same shoes feet glued to the past I’m stuck in thought The thing I was going to say ended up erased Discussions to come up with a plan To challenge every day Let the picture come alive Have an idea And take strive Life brings disappointment And change Not always in the favour you hoped But challenges comes in any shape Through all doors Through the tears dried up inside Memories that come and go Each and every day I open my eyes The river keeps flowing Raging at times now you see how things are going for me I think I’m in hell all the time look at me heaven isn’t to far away Yeah my mind has been so spaced for so long drug addictions are taking a toll one minute you in control but lately I don’t no any more you get out of the game and not dedicated to the change really it’s a challenge every day the need and the itch will always be there an every day routine my mind has been spaced every day is a recovery I new this was going to be a long road but their are speed bumps sharp turns never ending roads this staircase I walk on feels like it weakens my bones cracked glass pavement with no definition sidewalks with no exit even when I try to be strong have my own opinions I seem to still be in the wrong Fuck but that’s life…….