But I Did

I said I wouldn't fall in love but i did same day dang I really got trapped maybe if I could take back the love didnt last so just leave it in the past like I leave everything that's sad I said I would've changed but we know that I wouldn't because i cant come threw maybe it's time to end my life like I always wanted to you heard me right its about time to tell you why I want to end my life if you were in my position you would understand news coming everywhere even underneath the stand I swear to god these people I loose is too much I cant stand it always in a such in the way I hate just face it if I was out nobody would care see I try to share or at least show what my life is like to the people that has to fight threw the stuff that I do maybe if i could tell you how I really feel I'd get help I was hurt walking not walking limping sharing but not sharing the real thing I swear my hearts aching and no I am not faking I said I wouldn't fall in love but i did same day dang I really got trapped maybe if I could take back the love didnt last so just leave it in the past like I leave everything that's sad I said I would've changed but we know that I wouldn't because i cant come threw maybe it's time to end my life like I always wanted to yes you heard me right for the second time I'm telling you I dont know what to do stuck in a never ending loop I just really want to shoot myself so I dont have to choose which is worse dead inside or dead outside I feel like I'm dead in the inside someone help just end my outside I cant try to survive It hurts to much very down I need to clutch I feel like I'm in a grudge but alot worse but of course that's all bye yall