in lonely nights just like this i lay on my bed reminisce about different shit different thoughts drifting through my mind, wondering if ill be fine been fighting these demons for a very long time on my own, got nowhere to go who do I call the only thing i have is hope want to run from it from pain from hate hapiness in disguise smiling through my face but in my heart im broken shattered like glass , please don't pick me up just let me crash dont want to be sad i dont want to cry i keep on telling myself everyday everytime if my grandma was here she'll make everything feel fine i miss when shell hold me in her arms tell me everything was alright now shes gone so im all alone in this world shes the only one that got me, yeah she gave me hope shell protect me from above at day smile but i cry at night, yeah its true thats the only reason i seem strong, not gonna lie to you is it love or lust said you loved her but you lied you make me smile even though youre the reason im sad yunno scars you cant see they are the hardest to heal try to please everyone, but ended up here displeasing my self loving someone else now im asking myself is this life could go on and on about the troubles ive been facing but people don't care theyre even happy that you face them its true lost a lot of friends most of them where snakes i betrayed some of them and i regret it everyday i just want to smile i pray to God every night deliver me from my sins cleanse me make me feel alright in lonely nights just like this i reminisce about different things i have missed different thoughts drifting through my mind, wondering if ill be fine been fighting these demons for a very long time on my own, got nowhere to go who do I call the only thing i have is hope