confused

My mind is so confused People looking at me funny I don't know what I do I'm just trying to get some money And She tell me that we thru But she be calling me her honey I live a dark life wanna go where it's sunny I'ma go with the descions that I make I know that they wanna take all my rap away I don't listen I don't care bout what they say Try to take my dreams from me that is a big mistake I'ma take my fam over the wall that has us closed in Mille dollar dreams in my head I was chosen This world ain't what it seems always keep your eyes open Trauma gang for life my nigga that is just the slogan I'm really feeling broken From the pain that you put me through You don't want to see me shine you just want to see me lose They tell me to give the music up but I just  refuse Stab me in my heart after everything I do I ain't no average dude