dearest of them all

dear God or may I say your dearest who ever's listening i maybe not that far from believing but I thank you for not letting me grow wild and deceiving I was wondering who am I renumbering infact buffering I don't choose this suffering oh Lord give me strength before retiring I need something more inspiring as i Walk through the velly of the shadow of death oh Lord oh god I'll be smiling depending on the road how dark it may be smelly or filled with 🍒 stuck in my belly exectly even though I haven't spelled it correctly coz I ain't perfect already I just keep it steady if you change me and make heavy