rough draft for my son need crtisiim

this is a meassage to my son and i hope really hears it draven ray i love you baby boy you know i truly miss you need you wnat to hug and kiss you hold feed you dinner when you fighting with your sisters scrathcin pullin and hair and screaming promise me you will never hit them never lay your hands up on woman ask yoir mama how that went that shit put me back in prison thats the reason i was missing on the day started breathin baby boy i mean this that shit took me off deep end and u think that woulda made me set some.goals and go achieve them you would think your motivation enough of a reason but i belive this has all happend for a reason you cant see me in my deepest darkest parts of my ADDICTION its so sicking stoumah toss and turin when i try to speak it as for this last year young man i must just admit it i m addicted to tbese substances and i truly need some treatment mind ifucked up.warped and weakend batting psycosis freak outs i just cant seem to quit them and ive made my life atrocious so by proxy you are growin im the father your not knowin and im greatful for. everyone raisimg you when i cant show up make my presence i promise you a xmas preasnt thats your father in your preasance with clean time.in sucsseion sucsess is my only and objective i wont stop until i get it thats us in constant living always talking laughing snickering i love u you lil dude i cant wait to.be c