ThoughtzZzZ inside my head

every day that goes by, thebthoughts inside my head. I hold back the tears I try to never let them drop, no I won't shed. no motivation, but its hard to rest lay my head down n get some shut eye, catch up and go to bed. wish I could sleep away my thoughts my reality makes me sob they think I'm crazy im in a haze. constantly feeling lost like im in a .maze and getting by seems tough I'm hoping it's just a phase thinking and studying what I'm gonna say just like an essay. all that bad weighs down numbing my pain as I smoke.on the brown always wanting to pack up leave, and get tf outta town I'll hold onto these times damn its very profound but the future will be briguter better yeah call it newfound this is part of my story growing up in Seattle northbound near the sound travelsd to the eastcoast with militaey all around didnt last long, that's why I flew home but this time its the south end that I roam..