I can't stay

DEAR BENJI, I'm writting this letter to you just to prove to you I did everything I could for you but sometimes no matter how hard you try, the system kills you inside it's like this every single day, waiting for a letter in the mail or an email from the worker saying he is better now but he had another siezure, this time they're gettin' worse... How the hell you gonna end a letter like that, don't you think about the pain? What the fuckin is happenin' I'm startin to black out again, then someone gives me a look, like they the ones that's shook, now my heart is bleeding out and I feel im going cold. Quick someone grab a bucket all my blood is rushin' that shits gold. Hook?? I will not say, that i will be the same, but i know that today, I overcame the demons creepin in my head like to play all the same games just lay my head down, on the bed, I WILL MISS YOU, YOU ARE WITH ME, INSIDE MY HEART IM BLEEDIN CAN YOU FEEL WHY IM HEEDIN' PLEASE DONT HATE ME, JUST KNOW THIS AINT ME I KNOW YOU HATE ME, JUST KNOW THIS ATE ME I cannot stand.. Ooh oh i know I can't stay I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU EVEN THOUGH I CANT STAY