Find myself?{Lying to myself!}

When you got, bad wealth. Sad health, & nobody left. That's when you find yourself. Lying to myself, trying to find myself. Stuck between life & death. Trying too find myself. Son dropped da bomb, like Baghdad. Young negus called, me a bad dad. How can I get mad? When I was never at the pad. Too busy chasing da bag. Facing zig Zags wasting, all the time I had with ole hags. Sht sad, my bad. Treated y'all so mean. Wish I could change everything. If I had a time machine. I'm flying back to when, you were thirteen. Remember when you, made the team? Won a ring &, was prom king. Living out your dreams. While I was, serving dope phens. Poor excuse for, a human being. No wonder why I, have poor self esteem. No more beans, no more lean. Now I'm clean the best, self I've ever seen. Looking in the mirror, future getting clearer. Even with Death getting nearer. Bridge... #UnorthodoxRecAndMotivation #ParadoxRecordsRevelations⚖ #ParadoxVisions #ParagonRec #Teambarriffic #TeamHighway #LocoEnt #LocoLyricalHitMan #southcitykillaz #Ram⁴Life #gta #Supportyourlocalartist #1Amo #RfContest #BmTourney #Top¹⁰ #New #NewWave #NewSound #RnBrap #autotunegoon #real¹ #Expermental #LitDifferentGas #rapfame #Rap #Trap #Hiphop #rapfamelive #Drill #BoomBap #Bmbest #Bmbeast #Bmvideo #Bmgrind #Bmgold #Bmheat #2021heat #heat #heatN2022²