one real me forgiveness

thankyou for all that u showed me up late at night sick u would hold me tears holdun back as i now see the deoth to witch u loved me i never understood the addition and truly never would now look at me 32 and in u i belive addition takken me seeing you in me the strength u had to still raise me and now im looking at a new me a grandma u would be so niw i beg u to guide me shiw me the stregth i know u keft to reside in me help me be u i been threw it all but now if i stay u i will fall i gotta step surpassing learning how to crawl i know ur smiling seeing your baby boy ball but at what price my love for her is priceless but my ways are vices dear grandma if ur listning can i have half the strength it took to stand by me for myself to find me i cant go on with out your hand but bc of u i see how but cant complete the man so please watch over me the road is tough but your hand in mine well make this last time