functional klusterfuk

yeah let me just say y'all can't contain the demons that I have inside my brain I deal with so much pain I'm like damn I don't got nobody like Bruce Wayne no mommy no Daddy I feel like an orphan then then I can only child in the world than the black I've been f****** struggling everyday just for a little bit of respect on my God so many people f****** give me all this f****** PTSD anxiety and stress feeling like I finally met my f****** match oh my God is getting so f****** crazy so bad yeah it's a the f****** Shiloh and jumping up the deep in on this mother f****** b**** in the funny part is is I can't even swim I just f****** doggy paddle then I'm struck struggle in struggle struggle bus yeah I'm about to make us cuz I'm really mad I'm a confused ignorant klusterfuk I feel like maybe a I f****** too much I'm telling you I probably do that more than doing good okay and yeah they got it understood but not nobody can do it like I could okay I am self-loathing my dude yeah self-loathing in the middle does exploding but I feel like my brain is soon to be involved in this like a f****** oh rosing cuz they keep on taking over rent and getting ready looking man man I'm looking for the closest just to go and get over some f****** feelings that had me going show some things and go into exposure now I feel like those things had made me feel lower and I feel like damn maybe I can feel myself because I feel like I am obligated to give everybody else helping that look in the energy that I need is used it a hoe and she was on somebody nevermind T whatever I mean I feel like damn what the hell is happening now oh yeah Used to Be Myself & I in 2019 and now it's it's like I can't even stand to be around me I see myself in the reflection that I can't even believe the f****** thing that I'm looking back at it's like a monster that suck and round out my f****** hard and they tore my body and my mom was in a park with my family out of prime rib at everything and hit it with my behavior and now I feel like a stranger and I don't know how much I am going to be able to breathe I need a f****** inhale it because I don't know how I am leaving f****** living I don't know but I'm a I'm alive I'm alive I'm going to survive and now everybody going to f****** beehive regrets in for a long time I'll just f****** hate and f****** doubts that they packed in my f****** mind at night saying that I couldn't f****** overcome the obstacle in life if I can figure it out and not the wrong and do right but I've been on my own past look at all because I wanted so goddamn bad