((NotEasy))

even though I look away bleeding more deeply my soul remembering the day you lost your strength an had to go I was so mad at God that he let the only one I really had fade away u yelling your name now dealing with the pain im stuck feeling so shamed couldnt bring my self to tell u it was ok fuck is all I could say how could a son tell his dad that as he's about to pass gasping for one more breath as death over came since knowing this was the way out been insane careless to anyone's tears bcuz my own hearts been ripped out now just smoking trying to cop with all my emotions letting Noone see depression acting as im laughing tellin a joke the quotes now ill just say this no parent9 in should ever have to lose there kid but I wish mine did at 48 I think at the gate they made a mistake took my dad so sad something can never get passed forever you'll be changed I just wish could go back and look at all the things I missed thinking time was something we have when in fact its already gone by the end of this song so long now that your gone im just trying to be half of the man u was becuz dad even that would be enough if u can hear me show me some love from above im really giving up I need my head lifted feeling so distant father an son Holly spirt hoping that u hear this let my tears disappear clearly