rest in paradise

#canada #ontario #RIP #lovedones #blessed I do drugs to ease my mind thinking back to the time I use to be happy. Now I'm stressing looking all around and I still can't find a blessing. Now the world still testing. At the age of 12 looking at my father resting. See Through some good times and some bad you where my dad, when I was a little boy I use to be your little lad. now it's so sad now your gone so I'm singing this song but now I know you're up in heaven flying so high flying in the sky don't cry just say goodbye I wish I could cry but I didnt understand but man the pain was insane It was the main thing I was thinking about didnt want to cry or shout but there was no way I could let it out so I hid it inside it was like a tide of tears I cant believe you died from all the cigarettes and beers it was my fears that the beams took you to soon I wish I could see your face on a full moon My child hood at 12 was fucking ruined And its not the fact you're gone but you where never there so as a kid thinking where I went wrong. This life is so short so your dreams is something you can't prolong See I became a man on my on own from my emotions I ran all alone on the phone with god  like what's the plan down the road. I showed the world I'm a survivor with the lyrics they call me macgyver. Prior to this the slightest things got me pissed. I procrastinated so much that most my life I missed.