it's Cmk & I've been blinded by love before I've been dying on the inside my mind's sane & my brain's insane it's a war & I'm not sure if I'll survive my hearts in pain addicted to it like cocaine suicidal driving down both lanes & I know that I may die soon tryin to ride the waves of a typhoon love is a virus I've become immune to it gave her my heart & she threw it away nothing left worth savin' in this relationship but she can't say I didn't try my hardest to make it work out gave it my best effort & now my chest hurts I'm having a heart attack life never gives me a break like a kit kat bar everytime I tried to pursue happiness I never get that far ready to see whatever it is that comes after this it's Cmk it's my mistake to date a co-worker cause I hate to be ignored watching her flirt with every guy within a mile radius I miss how she use to smile at me everytime we ever made eye contact now she act like she needs contacts can she not see or do I not even exist is this how it feels to get ghosted all i wanted to do is kick it but I hit the field goal post the balls in the endzone I'm in the friendzone spending nights alone writing lonely that's my last track doing everything ass backwards all I do is back track blinded by my past reminded of her by everything I see like its a friendly reminder & it's starting to make my mind hurt thinking about the things I could've did differently & wishing I could be a different me but I am who I am & she is who she is just wish she gave a damn or 2 shit's blinded by hate but don't hate her the person I hate right now name is Nate wait that's me first name that makes me my biggest hater & it hurts like getting tased by a taser or worst then being cut by a razor blade million times over & over again blaming the lord & savoir but what did he do its my fault living my life blinded like I cut out my eyeballs feeling like Bruce Willis cause I'm a diehard