Dear myself I feel so lonely everyday and night sometimes I just want to end things with my life but I can’t cuz of my family that keeps me going even though they might be mean sometimes but that is what a family is I do my best to make people happy and to make my mom proud of me but I can never do that They say I am a weirdo, that I am fat, that no one loves me!! Is that true is there someone who loves me out there!! But I want to ask something what would you do if I did end my life right here right now!! Would you care about me then I love you people so much but I feel like I have no love do myself you guys hate everything do I just want to be happy!! I feel like I ware a mask on my face everyday no one can see the real me the real me is hurting I am falling apart but you do not care so I will say see you in hell!! Will anyone love me for who I am I mean even my own dad thinks I am fat even called me a bitch will you guys love me now or when I am gone do I need to make you proud I used all my happiness to make you guys happy so what if I take that away then you feel how I feel everyday I feel like I am nothing in this world I just keep going down and down!!