No leaving me

I'm sending out these memories but I keep on making enemies I keep on getting hurt again by all of these words that people take to feel complete, I'm getting too emotional I'm feelin' way too ropable I'm getting heartbroken by the way that I'm misjudged, I'm going round in circles and I'm circling the streets, I'm turning round this earth like I'm a satellite, name, samzy, I'm like Optimus prime I'm Wining, like usual hatin' all the usual nonsense, I'm so used to, straighter then a triangle and rounder then a square, I got so many angles it's impossible to bear, am I in denial or am I just sailin' through, am I on the Nile or is this a quicker way through, I keep asking why but I never seem to get to you, I thought about suicide but that I could never do, life's way too short to give up so soon, I gotta lotta pain and it keeps causing me to break and while I'm sorting all the blame and letting go of the mistakes I can't get these thoughts straight, every time I do I get caught up, i have been so straight, why hating on me, don't wanna be caught up in the middle like this, all I ever did was to show you love, why treat me this way, we are in this for real cuz you boarded forever you said I was true and he was the screw, thought of many pain killers but none seem to work, your love is the pain killer to the pains am going thru so many times i thought of lettin you go for good, but my mind is to weak to let go you, saw you last week with him in a barbershop my heart ached so hard that it almost blew, why hate me so much when all i did was to care , thought I was the happiness you never had like you claimed , said you gon be my manager when am all blown up, we made memories together that you said will beat all them drama, you danced to my beat when I started that I couldn't make a better line why leave me now I still love you pleaase come back am no better man, I've got flaws never am complete, there is no writing you, let my music speak, am the voice in your head you know that, so there's no leaving me