I am nervous all the time Hurting but the fault is mine I've been feeling low for months on end Thinking about how to get out of this mess All this time gone and spent With loneliness and stress I don't hang out with friends No more I stay isolated, little rest Someday my thoughts will have to get addressed Take off my public character, get undressed Unfiltered, I'm no damsel in distress Think I'm happy, think again My thoughts, how'd I let them in Is it really that hard to get a grip Well it is when you make sure that you never slip Feels like my head is getting hit I hope I don't get urges to ever slit Some people think forever but don't know what forever is Don't know what forever means I wish I could set a dream How can I become a better me? Do I change the way think? Do I change the way I feel? Do I change what makes me blink? Or pretend that fake is real? My testicles aren't made of steel I didn't know it could be so hard to make a meal