#samc if, I, - dont tell you, how I feel for you might, this,  make it feel - even more real when I find out you do to making, - the odds, feel like - they are, even rarer then, a regular, game, of, love roulette, when, you are,  placing,  everything, -  in ya heart,  on tha, head, - of a,  - specific, bet i've found,- that, through all of tha - intellect, threats - you've made me, - keep, being, my nicest,  - the mostest. and that is,  - why - telling others, -  I love them. -  has, felt, so wrong - the longest. the thing is, I've  been bitten,- with the poison,  of better, so deciding,  is a -luxury, - like a, dream,  yes, I - get ta choose who, you, are...- in ya, dreams how I, - have to,  make do, - with tha,   luv, that - surrounds us,  ta, turn us - round on  those, lonely, days, - of lust from those, -  momunts  - I -was introduced... to you,  - I  didn't give up... -but how,  right  -now, the next,- level,  might,  nut - be - better, -  so  i  keep, - trying, to  - think  of what, -that next,  will,-  will be, that will, - will that will,- ta  harness, - the right will, to will, -  what  might- just, - still,  feel, - like - it could still- feel the same, For you - as it does  for me,  to say,  or appreciate -  the wrong thing, -  might, just, be  the,  right thing I,  get over - my  friends, for you - even though There are, a - few,  who. would have said, I  do, 2 - 2 but that's - only, if  - you,  refuse, to -   see - if us to - gether, would be -  something you  wouldn't do -  like, back in the,  day - when we,  were young, and - no one, really,  had, checklists, - of ,how not to be,  like their ex's - but every,  one of your, crew  are characters - created by you,  its quite -  impressive, what you do,  to keep a, hype - around you,  as, everyone else -but, you watch me -  be that fool, in love - inside their, own cookcoon   and - if ya know, what Im saying yeah, - thats what im saying if - you know, what I say,  then there is - no way  of avoiding, a cliche if, your - cruisin, to  the tune - of thinking - what the fuck, is this guy, thinking then maybe, one day,  - this will b, replayed and infuse, your confusion - into an, -a puff-any state  of being, but, -  is to much,  good, good are these, perceptions... - viruses, infecting,  in the form of a song. - or is, this,  -the outcome - of a brain, infection,  from what I, - should have, done -  but now, its all, gone wrong you tamed, - the wild in me,  without even - realising.  Made it, seem  - so easy,  I know it  - wasn't your intention.  I new  - the odds were insane, and  changing them - the same but, tha, buttons, been -pushed, now, already will fragments, from tails, - of how I feel, give me, the material  I need -in finding, -  those thoughts, to that, blissfulness that doesn't, make you - come across, as ignorant  makes me - feel, I can go, - the rest, of my, life, without,  - needing to, - think, again, how -  soon, - since now,  until you,  realise - the reason why,  is, because - I realise I, will spend my, - life,   looking for, perfection, -  from a, perception,   seen through, - your eyes oh well, why,  should I,  - blissify, - this, if I,  - know I,  - will trap my-self -  into a - future of, - bliss,  impossibleness,  where, I,  -well,  not, be,  - able, to,  use bliss,   - to convince,  - my-self,  - happyness can  I still, class  - you as my -  friend,  -I,  give you, - permission or - is it,  someone else's,- permission,  you need, - before ya, allow in -  any, newer, feelings, for me,  when ya - dig, - yourself - deeper in because digging, - yourself, out of this -  situation,  feels, like - alot, more effort, and before ya know it  - that bad, moment - you were in, -  is where you - wish you, - were again. so lets strike a, match with that of what, - we, stole of each other, for, tha, better,- future world, of never,- being together have ya put yourself, -in a, bliss When, - all the Fake caring starts to be - the only thing - that feels- the realest - because its - all, that exists. if I look at the, past, long enough will i start finding  that rare chance again, and not do this - same thang how much - free - er, can I  - be.  if the, way you - dont love me, entraps me in the end is love - just a, past - dream, that I, - look, forward ta  only achieving - in ma mind if there is a - part of me, -  in you - an,- idiosyncrasy -  in tha, - way, ya, look at, ya self, - in that future, already - tasting, tha, pain, - of not, having - what ever, it is - that you've, been craving,-asking, - why I care - is a,  cry, inside, - everytime, powers used to, abuse - with fear-full, threts2 shock.... -  how much care, is, left, before, - i don't, give a, fuck a- bout -  y, I - cared about,  what they - mean to me will I -  end ,up choosing, - to hate - from, my own,  risks, - I take , in the, actions, - I've, - never made a moment,ary lapse - n happiness, gap created - from the, lack   - of anticipated - backed, up fates. -  forever,  - getting tha, better, of ya. time ta, re start, that - forever, date. bc Forever, - really only - lasts,  - within me. crazy - how much of that respect - u gave me, - made me, see -  how ta, - want to, - need ta - be, how you, see me, - need to, see you Feels like -  im a convincing -  myself, I have more purpose - than I, do your too  perfect, for me to - allow my - self, to, torcher you,  - by, being, with, you, - and not allowing you. to, be, - with someone better I, - don't think, that I am asking, for that much.  - Im just hoping, - because - to me, these feels,  feel so, natural, - its unreal - how you do - it - because of the - hope, you showed, towards me,  or - was that all -  just, out of, - edicate because your sweet, even sweeter then kel, will we  eva, - end, up feeling, comfortable -  not needing to, - think up, - reasons ta  forget, it disregard, each other our shared perspectives - if we, ever continue to care -  to, share, each other, - with each other,  , enjoying, being -  able to. - where our - hearts -  on sleeves - happily even, - if it, means -  forever - from tha - other - side, of tha  world - it would still  be, amazing, - but, I - dont even - get any, attention,  not even, what you give to, all those fans, - who you  dont, even, - know, so, I, - dont even - know, why, - or how, I - keep feeling,  - this way, for you, I, just, do the faster, my mind, is able, - to  revolve, and conclude, what I, -  know  the less time I need to  - care bout what emotions to grow, so I,  dont remember, -  why, I, feel this, - need, Ta -be,  in ya life when youve, been, - convinced  that you, would, be, best  - without me -   convinced  she -  wouldnt want to - see me, or, even be,  - entertained, by me So my, - reason, why, I,  - wana know, if we, - will ever, think   - about each other - the same , way,   - at the, - same time....-  remain what's the first thing that, you will say, - that, will then lead  to,- everything, - then, - being ok.  Will you, b.lame, - will you,  be tame,  Are all these, - feelings,   - for you,   remaining  tempting me to fail  the impossible again,  so I,  can, keep, entertaining  my  most vivid parts of my,  imagination how, can, I  - be caught up, in, an i-dea, - that is, - persuading, them,  of a, situation, - that is, - allot more, difficult then,  the one, -they are, already in, if  I,  - truly - love them,   how can,  I