I need You Creator

I remember the struggle remember the pain i remember the tussles the blood fallin like rain and the ones that passed on, did they die in vein still on my knees prayin, one day ill see u again times is hard for an indun boy feelin like we dont matter the struggles harder everyday still i keep hearin the chatter talkin bout whats real and fake talkin bout who got swagger so many homies passed away feelin like its a dagger in my soul gotta keep the faith. even tho i do badder at times the evils tryin to make me break makin me stagger im too strong for this playahate, tired of the laughter tired of these people turnin into snakes. tail with a rattler what do i gotta do to keep a sane game mindframe seems like i can only turn to u, u hear my words when i pray deaths knockin on my door, tell it to go the other way my kids need me in their life so i refuse lay away God help me thru this life full of pain. I need you Keep me safe until my soul flys away I need you Now understand at times i stand on my i own I need you Its like im making my final journey home I need you Iknow it seems like most the time i do wrong I need you I know ur there right there in my soul Ineed you The grudge is hard its harf letting it go I need you Its like im making my final journey home I need you. Even tho times past. Still feels like yesterday. All I heard were them shots blast, and saw you on the pave. Started to blame myself, shouldve helped you through your pain. Heartless is how I felt, its still a struggle day by day. Cant belive your not here, for my daughters to call you uncle. Every year I still drop tears, tip this bottle and guzzle. Til the pain numbs and disappears, blood rains in puddles. Then comes anger turnin in from fear,  danger By doubles. Feels like im trippin in this prison with these cards ive been given Dishin out hatred from the heart, for lost lives that im missin. Suicides jus another sickened way to deal with it. I got my babies in my heart and their given me spirit. I miss you Rex, Leslie, Britney, Allen, J.P., Chris Chisolm. Jeremy harjo.wuz my brotha. John Kernell my ninja. I still think about yall everyday alone and im wishin. I can see you jus once again, in this life That im liven. God help me thru this life full of pain. I need you Keep me safe until my soul flys away I need you Now understand at times i stand on my i own I need you Its like im making my final journey home I need you Iknow it seems like most the time i do wrong I need you I know ur there right there in my soul Ineed you The grudge is hard its harf letting it go I need you Its like im making my final journey home I need you. Big vern I miss em, big cuz ,youll always Be the big homie. Talkin pints but you brought gallons, clownin them phonys Remember ballin with John Kernell at them indian tourneys. we had a court of red dirt. we had fun on our journey. John paul and me kickin it class clownin And ditchin. Gettin blown at lunchtime, the belmont wuz our mission. Remember eastside elementary, 4 induns and Chisolm. Me, you and Jay and Terrance harjo, John holata we kicked it. Ill always have you in my heart, yo I can still feel your spirit. Can not a thing fade your memories, your voices I hear em. Always remember your souls not lettin nobody judge you. Jus lettin you know im prayin still, cuz down here we still love you. god help me in this life full of pain i need u keep me safe until my soul flies away i need u understand at times i stand on my own ineed u its like im makin my final journey home i need u I know seems like most the times i do wrong i need u I know there, right there in my soul i need u. The grudge is hard, hard lettin it go. I need u Its like im makin my final journey home i need u