Old Rap on a New Beat

#LBKC #ParadoxRecords #4OhSicks #4Loko6. #Loco4ent @RapFame @OleSpit @ReaperSkillz Perhaps Ima LazyBoy #LOST { @Abbergails 😭 🌻🌹} Years are gone cuz I was up on levels, I SPENT TOO LONG FIGHTIN WITH DEVILS MY MENTALS DENTED ITS BROKE & UNSETTLED, EVERYDAY THAT I WAKE UP FIGHTIN EMOTIONS N ITS DREADFUL, DYIN IN MY MIND TRYNA SMILE IS A HEADFUL, LEVELIN UP AINT REGRETFUL, EXCEPT THE LESSONS LEFT ME WRECKED, MESSED UP & VEXED. PERPLEXED THINKIN THAT MY DEATH IS NEXT, OR IM DESTINED TO BE FOREVER STUCK IN MY DEPRESSION, LONLINESS IS ALL I FEEL. & ALL I EXPECT N, LOVE ISNT REAL, IVE COME TO ACCEPT IT, MY TRAGEDY I CALL LIFE. I SHOUDLA NEVER STEPPED IN. TEARS IN MY EYES DISGUISED, DECIEVIN PERCEPTIONS, EVEN THE EXCEPTIONALLY RECEPTIVE DON'T REALIZE NEVER SEEIN THAT IM SO DISCONNECTED THIS MOTION OF THINGS HAVE LEFT ME EMOTIONALLY DEFECTIVE. NOW SLOWLY IVE GROWN COLD IN MY SOUL. SO MUCH I MAY JUS' FOLD UP, MY CONSCIENCE I LET GO OF, IT MAKES ME WANNA THROW UP. SO I GUESS THEN EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE IS LESS THAN A STEP FROM DEATH BUT FAR FROM ME IN CHECK YEAH THATS WHERE I LEFT IT. AS IM FIGHTIN TA STAY COOL CALM & COLLECTED MY HEARTS A FOOL FROM BEIN NEGLECTED. LEAVIN ME WRECKED N DEMENTED. WHICH HAS AFFECTED ME IN ALL SORTS OF MANNERS, NOT THAT It MATTERs BUT EVERY LOSS I HAVE STABS LIKE DAGGERS IN A MANNER OF SPEAKING IM A LETHAL DISASTER NEVER RESORTIN WIT LEGALS. CUZ YA KNOW THAT ID RATHER RELEASE A LIL OF MY EVIL ON THESE BEATS OR EVIL PEOPLE AS LAUGHTER FILLS MY MIND ALL LIFE IS ON THE LINE. BUT I DONT MIND & IVE COME TO FIND IT WILL TAKE OUT THIS SENSELESS CHATTER INSIDE. ** LAUGHTER***. IM FEELING SKITTER SKATTERED. ALL THE TIME SWEARIN THAT im CLOSE TO THE FINAL BITTER CHAPTER OF MINE INSIDE IM SCREAMIN, UNABLE TO RELEASE THIS DEMON OR DEFEAT THIS PAIN THAT IM SEALED IN, NO 1 BELIEVES IT IM UNABLE TO ESCAPE WHAT IM FEELIN, IM THE ONLY ONE TA PLAY THE CARDS LIFES DEALIN. IM NEVER ON THE GROUND CUZ IM CRASHIN THRU THE CEILING. IM EVERLASTIN, NEVER LEAVING, NEVER QUITTIN' BREATHING. NEVER CEASIN, ENDLESSLY SPEAKIN. BLAZED OUT OR DAZED FROM THAT MOTHAFUCKIN GEEKIN, THINKIN BOUT THINKIN, MY MIND IS PEAKIN, PHYSICALLY IM STILL, MENTALLY IM LEAPIN, ALWAYS DREAMIN, THINKIN IM AWAKE BUT I MAY BE SLEEPING. ITS UNDETERMINED THO, CUZ MY MIND WONT QUIT THINKIN DISTRAUGHT THOUGHTS LIKE DROPS LEAKING FROM A CEILIN. ITS AN I CANT CONTROL ME THING, LEAPING ON A PEAK TO SEE MYSELF TRYNA MEET ME, I SMILE OUTSIDE BUT MY SOUL IS WEEPING, THATS WHY I STAY ON THE EDGE ITS WHAT KEEPS ME BREATHING, I CAN NO LONGER NUMB THE FEELINGS THAT ARE TRYIN TO SINK ME EMOTIONS DEEPENING BUT THEY WONT DEFEAT ME. THO IM BROKEN DEEPLY IN MY SOUL COMPLETELY. SO ITS NO HOPE ON THIS KNOWN ROAD. IM SO WOKE BUT STILL WANTIN GO FROM THIS COLD WORLD.