I know that you’re gone but I just can’t believe it I’m still trapped in the moment the doc said you was leaving I kept praying to God but your heart rate kept decreasing It’s been eight fucking months but I still ain’t grieving Cause I can’t feel shit, I just stand here disbelieving Like I’m seeing but not perceiving It’s the only thing that keeps me breathing Maybe if I’m numb I’ll lose my feelings Yeah I pray I’ll lose my feelings Don’t even know what I’m feeling They say that time should be healing So I just stare up at the ceiling Counting the seconds, Praying up to the heavens, Maybe my pain can be lessened See I used to dream of being a legend But now all I want is just one more second One more goddamned blessin’ One more fucking miracle Cause God knows that I need it Making my pain lyrical I wish I could delete it Every single day I wish you never left And when I hear your name knocks the wind right out of my chest My lungs forget how to work it’s a struggle every breath Cause as a kid you don't believe in death Until it hits you in the face and you see it for yourself Until you see what it can take and there's nothing you can do to help So you just stand by their side til their body's just a shell And God I miss you More than you'll ever know I wish I knew where you had to go Cause if I did I woulda taken your place a thousand times over Never let you get so low Now I'm missing my hand to hold Fortune favors the bold And the bravest thing I'll ever do is keep on moving without you, but I keep on pushing through #ionicmissyou #missyou #imissyou