#inmyfeeling #kingzup2020 #lbkc #drazzo #paradoxrecords #locoent #LAZYBOYKINGZ fuck it here it is I'ma artist, tell my darkest secrets over a beat hope it hit, but I spent most my life livin strife so my starie night, ain't gone get big til after life, is wut it is my depression got me like Vincent vango, put that pistol to my head let go, though of anything worse Hell no I'm bipolar y I say I'm crazy ask my ladie one minute you gone lov me next you gone hate me, trust nobody own momma ditch me az a babe, married 6 years held me down through all my shit still don't trust her, for no reason no I'm wrong but the feeling wit me long as I'm breathen, I be joken have you laughing inside feel like you tryin bak stab me watchin yo move then out no wer WUT UP Wo WHAT wtf you wanna do 3 days ago woke up hooked up to a iv Baptist hospital suicidal brought in by police, all I remember is walkin down the street drunk, mad as fuck went to a party chill my youngest sister, my lil babe she dont no my crazy most her life I was gone away, thankfully she ain't me 12 when she was born an I was passed around like a plate state to state now she grown went to her home so proud of her but im my head created a wrong mixed with alcohol left the party me an one her lil friends was arguing my ladie said we left held myself wasn't that big a deal but in my head it was, went for a walk 3 in the morning on a mission get killed forreal, I guess police man stopped ask how I'm doin told em fuck you herd excuse me,,, heard me bitch I'll stump you better call back up you gone need em 5150, now bak to evil day before praisen god talking happy times with my kids seen the freestly it's own her see it now cop naturally thought iz spunout pulled his gun out, I dont blaim him best decision he made that day, cause I was in my crazy truth is I ain't wanna hurt nobody innocent even a police man ain't did me shit called him a punk told em bang that bitch real shit do it if I was you, I'd pull it, pussy bout that time bak up pulled up thank god scared the fuck out the rookie see it in his eyes never killed nobody next thing I no hospital hooked up iv wish I could say I dont remember but this my diary no point of lying was down for the count said my alcohol leval was over a thousand told her were I'm from that's when we start counten was the problem hospital ladie say got somebody you can call So I called Babe only one no my crazy only one ain't left me her an my kids is what it is some shit you dont wana here forreal been a minute since I lost it like that Last time, let's jus say I been free for a minute ain't trying go bak dont wanna talk bout that, one thing I can't let go texas I ain't from people here dont realize I'm fukin dum how far I'll take it red rum Love God With a passion intelligent as shit, should. a 79 own the Asvab 16 gone join the army, kicked out a school, on probation bootcamp judge gave me, loved. it something about the structure was amazing honestly im good. at every dream I chase top rank, but I throw it all away football skilled, played two years never second string always started defense an offense baseball same shit was in the paper 13 pitching 89mph nobody ever showed to my games nobody, played sports all together 6 years atleast my Sargent congratulated me for my skills, Y I ain't join got.popped distribution 3 dime sacks wasn't even sellen took charge for my boys, why I dont love my self that's a mystery I'd buy off the shelf truth, fucked life as a kid attended 27 school. districts befor I quit need 3 credits graduate, ditched everyday showed up own test day, alota good people tried to help me along the way loyalty to everybody but me dont no wut to say, wasn't beat cause at 12 years old stepped daddy tried a lesson to teach ended up, on the bed still see him shaking way to good to me lost him two years ago real love I push away today that's it ran outa time out the beat again ima have to rush wen I spit it