why do I do this to myself why am I always last in line? Is it cuz I simply have the time? and I have the extra dime. in my pocket I gotta chalk it up that my shelfs are empty can you maybe help me? could you maybe stock me without stalking me u know creepin around not making a sound eyeing me from far and near I'm not dumb I know you're here and you best steer cleaR I may end up one that youll fear and I do this again why do I do this to myself? why am I always getting the short end of the stick? in class when we played games . why was I always the last one picked? should I be more independent I know you like for me to put you first I'm so parched baby please quench my thirst take the dry from my mouth kiss me moist it's up to you now baby it's your choice do you want me now? or are you letting go? you gotta tell me I beg you, I gotta know. if you dont wanna be with me please tell me so why why do I do this to myself?