negativity

mind bogging around, need to concentrate. all the mistakes n regrets i'll cotemplate, i have been losing the real me, caught in the chase, sometime the real does not work, got to be fake. i hate it but fake it till we make it, i havent been saint myself, lets not debate it. i have seen myself how lies work and truth fades, done right to people but never seen better days, fake face with their clever ways are winning, mama said real win, man am losing my faith. shit is changing me, i was a simple kid, used to go anywhere on this page where my pencil leads. all act hardcore at the end we all sensitive, swords kills us but words cut more dense than it. its tiring the idea to face all again tomorrow, cant catch up with these speedy times, i need a slomo, expectations are heavy when you are solo( so low) , oh no, responsible bulges cant even hold more. everyday am reminded am all alone, my innocence glitches, i have seen big boys gossip around like bitches. i heard many rumour ,gave no mind to it. its funny how they think about me am fine with it. ain't here to brag, but people so close tend to talk behind back. now i keep everyshit locked like a treasure under high pressure, can't measure. so i keep my secrets, insecurities all tucked in these lyrics great walls built like china no break down. dont ask why am so silent, cause i think everyone's a fucking snake now. fucking Slytherin, cant talk to yall scum you guys probably speak in Parseltongue. i m cold like i got jewels on my neck, mind on my grind i got my priorities check. full gamma rays no bitch to calm me, been chewing this beats, never been this hungry. disloyalty, lies, ego and gossips, rumours, backstab, relations gone toxic trust issues, scar tissues, fake smile, show fake love to you, all these negativity is what i feed off, so i put lyrics on page and i sniff off, late nights ,deep thoughts rest in peace y'all.