Peace

always to blame its always the same. cant even change im feeling so strange the thoughts in my brain drive me insane. i wish that youd stay but you should go away. dark is the day clouded with pain. friends went ghost family aint close. im speaking my mind my heart and my soul keep it 100 its all that i know. i try and i try but i fail and i fail. patience is thin im bout to cave in. all of my shame I hide it away hold back the tears as i fight through the day. got lots to think but not much to say. i guess im okay i guess im alright. were all born to die we all live to fight. scared that the ends in sight dont wanna close my eyes and say goodbye. swallow my pride dont have much to hide im dying inside. who am I now am i a clown am i just here when youwant me around how im posed to smile when your drowning me out. I dont want to shout you dont need to scream. my head is a mess i cant take the stress i wanna do more i always do less. i wish for the best but plan for the worse since the day of my birth i always been cursed. tired of living im tired of tryin. tired of wishin but scared of dyin im not even lyin its just how i feel its just who i am. life is a nightmare and death is a dream. one day ill wake up and then ill find peace i guess if I'm lucky at least.