somethings bring me apart it tears me down right to the heart the voices in my head grow still and i have the choice at will the gun up to my head and in the mirror i will look i see my tears and my red eyes theres something i can never hide the sadness of the past ir the oldness of my soul its not something i know but its something that will grow as i suffer as i grind i believe this could be my time to heaven or to hell and I don't feel too well a 4th of vodka im gunna drive its my saga but now it dies everything i could have been flashes in my eyes right before i drift off into the sky i dont remember how you looked i just remember all the books and how you would pour everything you have into everything you did a genius, genuine guy as generous as gin still he died before my eyes i cant believe its him my only friend growing up a victim and of the stuck up you know the kids that just never shut tf up just another kid who been bullied till he couldnt keep it in him he couldnt find the strenght to fight another day and this is why i rap so that i can find a way ill see you in the next life friend dont you forget i can fight those bigger kids please do not fret i wish i could just say hello im drowning in regret its been too many years so i light my cigarettw