Fighting sleep

I'm down,pushed to a point,I try to avoid,fail to ignore,it hurts,hurts to the core,feeling absorbed,I don't want no more, I don't want no more,push myself,through the depths of hell,I fight to excel,trapped in a place, I've seen this face,I don't want the hate,don't fly that way,I know I'm great,was a big mistake,waste of time,I believed your lies,believe I tried,big surprise, love had died,tried to be real,tried to make you feel,it would never end,sleep deprived,look inside,your soul in stride, not so kind,on better days,I'm not your slave,but if you could have your way,we are not the same, Hook: Fighting sleep, these stupid dreams,they slowly creep,I don't wanna listen,or pay attention,stop the tension,close my eyes,it all comes back,so I face the fact, I won't be trapped,from the love you lacked,I'm better now,and I won't be back,now that my heart is black, Trust,all that you broke,you said I'm a joke,blame it all on me,how could you do that,we on the same team,rip my heart,right down the seam,its the same routine,it will never change,your excuse is lame,now I'm chasing fame,stay in my lane,but for you I pray,even when I'm far,not up for par,