running alone

I sit here by myself people asking are you okay I turn smile thinking they cant feel this pain I feel empty ima go insane I need new friends new life all I spend are 10 trying to get this pain to leave oh wait its back nobody can see how I trully feel me thinking how this pain feels so real it won't go away no I try so hard but it comes back im hurting inside I tell people about it next day they dont pay attention they just let it slide nobody cares how I feel maybe find a better life in another world this shit so dumb I wish all this pain can just go numb I thought I found love but I dont think she loves me all these things ive got for you but you turn around leave saying you found another dude funny how love works you can lie about howyou feel and to think i thought our love was real but it wasnt trapped in my mind just need little more time with you but you dont talk to me but its fine I get it I'm not someone to be tripping over you left said we are done wow were is the gun nothing I can do now but run. run from my feelings its I'm never gonna be winning