the past is present

NO CRY onetime wanna stop me mom and pops taught me rasised under the influence of money dinnertime we sit down as a family at the table separating 5s 10s and 20s counting50s and 100s puting them into rows n columns each stack containing no less than 25 thousand 15 down 10 across equals 3million bag it pack it vegetable oil Saran wrap it converted into weight average about 70 pounds for every 3 million transporting 280 pounds on to the next conversion turning drity money to clean by laundering it threw each one of the legitimate businesses construction companies a glass distribution wholesalers a couple of bars one has a brothole in it repeat this process 10 times a month thats 9 figures moms would always tell me be cautious trust nobody except your brother and sisters u think its just me and your dad we tuned this into the family business we started from a couple pounds evolved well u get the picture it was December wintertime cold n dry extreme red bloodshot eyes no emotions like a mugshot but im exploding inside imploding feels like im floating somtimes numb from violence and crime developed a chemical imbalance taking what the doctor perscribs counteract my sense of pride reminiscing missing that life reminiscing missing that life reminiscing listen that life reminiscence missing that life drug deal no cry no cry just trying to maintain a straight line drug deal no cry no cry just trying to maintain a straight line I think I was 12 when i heard a knock on the door mom yelled dont answer it i ain't expecting no one uncle mike already had his hand on the nob opened it slowly then all i heard was thumping thats wete my world imploded get a on the floor i was in my parents room flashlights reflecting down the hallway then a rush of adrenaline so intense fight or flight i already had a fucking gun ready to murder everone weres that hip hop real rap 2019 were the heat at i need dominance theres no confidence u want real heat u gotta back to when rap was promanate to the 90s they would shoot there guns rap for fun do drive bys and murder 1s they started to trive quick charted planes private piolts they finally had change they inveted chronic it was iconic unreal they had that white privilege sees pirvi chat was real rap ust like hip hop 2019 im dominant enough women see that eyes diatonic silage i need that hip hop real rap dominant i want that hip hop real rap heres my 1 shot an opportunity to create a verse thats universal to the earth i just like hip hop real rap i need some heat 2019 were it at i need content spoke with confidence heres some advice show some domanice be more precise u dont do it like we do it shits wak i got my glock on my hip ready strapped when i pull theres a possibility you'll never make it back difference between me and you is crucial evidence you'll never adapt life can be unpredictable and brutal if u aint getting money ya futile definition is dodo your gang colors are nutral be optimistic your cups full sadistic parasites will intrude remember to elude my generation was doing stupid shit way before u tube im bullet proof savvier i tell the truth ur inferer im in the booth ur the editor im the ring tone on your cellar bitch i been telling ya E45 is a competitor marval im not regular im Arnold ur the predator while planning ur day im accomplishing goals and getting paid sweating blood no tears i thank god everyday for answering my prayers and thoughts u dead wrong if think im scared your bars and vocals dont compare i can go ALL NIGHT LONGim prepared ur the definition of despair get on your knees say a prayer to pac and biggie if there i can feel it cooooming in the to night oh lord I want to listen to something vocally hopefull poetry notably with potency soulfully sociably supposedly hopelessly emotionally theres epademic globally shut up while why i relapse cozily intravenously inject some bars pac biggie a little bit of Lamar Eminem too Short Bone thugs and Harmony it always starts the little curiosity nothing worse than addiction and being stricken by poverty I'll never quit there will be no apology my words come straight from the head neurology I'm old school pardon me my pen an pad are a part of me it's in my DNA biology think I'm a hybrid psychology I do my word play logically one nation under God terminology insecurities dishonesty I know the Lord is watching me i stay myself social anxiety I just like my privacy i dont need no notoriety i handle my business reliably hesitant cuz we live in a f*** of society there's a variety of rivalrys everytime my heart beats I can feel the hood inside of me anorexic hookers with no sobriety her vaginal walls are echoing mightily she has every STD surprisingly she handles it viably that's the definition of tragic irony she better move quietly cuz if her pimp finds her he's going to beat her ass violently shes still a woman undeniably no man has the right to hit a woman justifiably cuz if i see it im gonna react defiantly it's a good example of a life spiraling while her child at home neglected all alone no protection or direction that section 8 is a blessing shes full of love and a affection but noway to exspress it when ur moms a whore that dont leave a good impression shes only 4 she dont need no therapist she needs a Resurrection the blind guy down the street could see she was suffering from depression shes didn't die from suicide a cop pressed for a confession in her neighborhood snitches get killed it was a homicide just another one of life's lessons shit can get deep each of my neurotransmitter are going to beep beep dopamine insufficiency handle it with crystal meth typically changing my brain chemistry viciously but I'm able to take care of tasks efficiently able to use my vocabulary brilliantly physically it's messing with my stomachs acidity learning to deal with people looking at me suspiciously I got a smile cuz initially I was a mess now my life's like a symphony I remember all my f****** ups vividly never count on no one specifically there's no love there's no empathy so I tread water carefully start with love it's a necessity money power respect equal longevity and do you never hide your identity never dealing with negativity it's usually just jealousy and get out of that comfort zone it's your destiny attack each problem aggressively and each day that passes you'll be progressing steadily not everyone you meet is the enemy just choose the right pedigree and in time you'll be a stable entity and that smile that you lost will come back eventually now there's nothing holding you back inevitably stay cautious protect your integrity it wont affect ur pride thats a rarity eventually you'll get that clarity now it's up to you to create a legacy hip Hop should tell a story have a melody watch out for similarities it should inspire and have sincerity hilarity it's up to you if you want to choose solidarity trust your gut in The Roots you came from success will follow you to the grave son prosperity is hard to maintain huh the popularity in the money could change ya I know it could be mundane but the terrain made you be grateful for everything the lord gave you holding onto the past can be painful walking around with ur plateful its ok to be wasteful all that pressure could be fatal its ur turn to turn the table this a blessing from an angle expressing yourself shouldn't feel shameful ingore all the lables people gave u handle the struggles graceful be careful be thankful beware of the devils lair can be tranquil dont let him rattle or shake you in a instant he can take u it dont matter ur race dude he'll look you dead in the face too he'll never stop chasing you