is this the end?

is this the end, this feeling going deep again, our crazy love burning all your jealousy friends, I cant tell you what I feels like,sometimes I wonna kill myself with the sharp knife but then I think twice, I'm not a coward everyday I say while I'm taking shower for a couple hours, now success is the mission every night i see some bad visions, cutting my self I'm burning in hell,I'm scraming for help, this feeling making me murder myself, I'm blessed this wounds not healing sometimes this feelings starts my heart killing,