boys r safe prt#1

My Boys, (My Reason 2 live)part#1 Just wanna shout out to my gorgeous sons.. look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do hear me speakin through da speakers and read along to da lyrics when I'm gone pull it out to peep it, i wrote it for y'all its urs, keep it, dad will start like this I love u kids, more then the life I was coldly dished, not 1 person tops it my heart beats for u beautiful gifts, til it's no longer throbbin, til it starts to slow down, i hope u see, dat my dad left me as a toddler, i will never treat u as if u r a pestilence or a bother, try to be ur best friends and a decent figure or role model as y'all father look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do ,hear me speakin through da speakers ,and read along to da lyrics u gotta understand , everyone has to stop at one point we aren't made immortal , after time we tend to lay in da coffin as our bodies become da earth ,ashes to ashes , dust to dust, metaphorically we r sulfur , waitin to b tossed in a fridge, only here to b missed bodies 90% water, u get da gist of wat my mouth is, so eager to spit into a fine mist, all over da fine print, all for u, trien to make ur eyes see ,wat life really is , god musta forgot to give me a script, cause i worry myself right into deaths grip, end up old as dirt,fallin and breakin hips hell, ill spare u boys my rack of ribs, it's a honor to see u flourish as u begin to live before my livht is dimmed by a hollow crypt, I'm not scared of bein a seed , jus plant me in pure bliss, somewhere, u and ur kids, visit as often as u can, in dis busy world im positive , that u will grow to b honest and over performative ballin is my #1 prerogative im so proud of u boys, young men, now i sat back and thought of it look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do hear me speakin through da speakers and read along to da lyrics its ok to laugh a bit, , we gave u life to live, ur destined for great colleges n fine goddesses climbin in ur bed, to hold u tighter den lips full of coligin, i spit flows as if ur old enough to follow it man, it's amazin to watch uz growin quick, always remember some deeds r self accomplishments, ppl will hate that u go seperate ways,ppl hate, cause it's da only way to get others to acknowledge dem dont ever follow dem, not all awards r in plack form to b honored wit, do it cause of kindheartedness.. to my heart doin right by others, is a intoxicant, pride stood in my way til i grew up, damn, jealous alter ego, salt and peppered it , in da end, I ended up swallowin him, without a drip or sip ,of any kind , at first dad had nauseousness, even found myself fallin on floor ballin, projectile vomiting jus had to get rid, of all of it sometime i get lost , in my head, pray to my lord, keep everyone safe, keep da drama camouflaged, look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do hear me speakin through da speakers and read along to da lyrics due to ur mamma controlin my time and dollars as if she has da remote to dashock collar never talk bad bout them, although, it seems, both want me spread out, all over dis mountain runnin into da holler, but ,i have a job , to hang on, jus as if I am a boatsman ,fightin moby dick, to live a few more moments ,make me seem, as if ,my soul had been stolen, only to believe the words my pap had spoken, da nelsons r cursed, we're all doomed wit a devious omen, it suppressed down in da cold emotionless ocean im strong today, bad vibes and negative socials are foatin around in my colon, ready for a hunch or notion, move out,in a fluidly motion, i wish to b jokin, but im real like adnoids that r swollen, good thing, docs. got a new potion, to get all da bad outta me , livin humble Keanu reeves in 47 ronan , demons from my past ,jus left it under all my sinnin, jammed way in, as i see clearly, how much u babies need me,always felt a evil otter lodgin his loggin deep inside my troublesome noggin, couldn't of hid my issues from y'all any , from yall any farther tried coverin it up, wit a black hoodie and toboggan so bad, at hidin my problems shoulda played for da Miami Dolphins way down yonder look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do hear me speakin through da speakers and read along to da lyrics I'll take care of u 2 so u, grow to b better then thee, dads felt da grumblin pains of hunger, bred ya stronger , built to last like ford, lot longer then david vs goliath u will concour that monster im sorry, for bein a addict, mind always in da gutta stinkin thinkin, shows more then a yellow mustard stain ,on ur white shirt coller , never see it as, we're here for da purpose of decayin, and rotten so I took dis time and pick a topic, to doodle and doddle, as dip dis pen, in my blood..tru lust and tough love, comin straight out da ink bottle lay it out on paper, shoulda considered writing a novel look imma let u in on a lil secret plz make sure watever u do hear me speakin through da speakers and read along to da lyrics like a lead foot, hittin the throttle, it hasn't been a easy road, i really did, start at da bottom, if I teach u one thing hopefully ,it's to face ur fears head on,, no problem, evaporate in thin air, time will dissolve all ur bothers, believe in da son and da father, in dis maze, u will blossom into something unique and awesome, like a rose bud, bloomin in autumn,, so i sat down and started to drop it, I'm not into all dat editin and croppin on a trak ill tell u how i got this far and the things i got and how i got em i enjoy every moment as u guys father i promise I'll teach u everything so u go into the world ready for all it hands u in ur palms and da ground u r stompin will not b another man's lawn i love u meen the world to dad we got quite a past of distance but jus know something is always missin and the family wishin to hear ur lil feet run through the kitchen and nomatta wat dad will drive 3000 miles to get ya i didnt have bad intentions when i messed up and left ya but now ur old enough i can text ya let ya know i miss ya i was 16 when we got ur first baby picture u were to young but i also raise ya big sista til the day i die ill protect yas if any1 trys to hurt u they messed up mfers betta lace up LOYALTY.. BABY BOY.. LISTEN TO POPS. I LIVE 2 SEE U BETTER THEN ME.. B ALL U CAN B AND NEVER GET LAZY ill protect ya  from those spectres all this jus sits in me and fesrures i didnt leave til u were 5 and i tried 2 b strong dad was so young and dumb but no worries u r my mission #1 rule of thumb i told ur mom i was gone she didnt believe me she had to even the score once more she shook my poor core til i was nomore she started a war and my heart was sore i was a drug addict 4 so many years.. i wanted to make it out so i moved outta town i pull boss money now i work 4 it oh boy do i work 4 it i will see that my handsomes have jordans and as i fade u will florish most important take care of ma this isnt a horror story it has a purpose I WILL ALWAYS B HERE 2 LIFT UR HEAD NO NEED TO B NERVOUS WE JUS SCRATCHED THE SURFACE TO THE TOP IS WHERE WERE SURFIN