Questions

man, sittin here, another day, thinkin about the people I've had in my life and how one after another they all seem to disappear but let's get it straight, I know it's my fault. there's been times I've disappeared for weeks there's been times you've called but I just couldn't speak mental mind decay growin weak mistakes I've made in the past, images repeat seasons come and go wit no control over the colors they leave stuck in a miserable existence the powers that be keep me chained I'm bound involuntarily drifting to the edge of my being (ya know what) human nature is a sad thing an once you see the truth it'll never be unseen! ignorance is bliss it's what they say but ignorance is what got me in the boat I'm in today driftin through vast oceans like the Life of Pi predators wishin an waitin for my spirit to die overwhelmed wit deceit an lies regret it multiplies consumed by defeat and care I lacked my happiness subtracts so sick of being mentally attacked I use to take drugs to cope but shit I can't even do that divisive thoughts within myself steer me down the wrong paths someone help me? someone help me? can you help me? will you help me? so unhealthy to live wondering what's the reason it all mean nothing (x2)