my thoughts ***

lif I only would have had knowledge of the youth of the choices that I choose to out life would really affect why I end up at I would have been much wiser I realize I put myself in this position I'm at a disposition but my wife is full attention and I suffer from depression I got laid off work and it seems like my life makes no progression but I've learned to not let the bad decision to turn my feet instead I turn the mistakes in the lessons what am I mean challenges are struggling with addiction isn't that one hit of crystal meth is all I need to be fixed but I need to give it up before I end up dead or in the pain so I think I might just try using a pen and paper and scribble down my thoughts mentally ill and not well feel like my life is a living hell it's kind of hard when I have no help and only person I have to talk to you with myself why is my lwhy mental health is on sub-par why is it success seems too far for me to find I'm going to keep following my heart because in time if I keep striving the name run for higher climate hopefully I'll succeed failure is not an option neither my thoughts proceed with caution I need to get better at timing cuz time can't be bought I can't change the past only what's ahead of me the thought of filling is in settling will my grandparents get to see me succeed the amount of stress I go through if ppthe amount of should I have on the line if you only knew I live my life humble the respect I give out with the same I expect back from you no more no less I don't speak other people cuz I think we're all created equal so don't speak on me unless you've ever been in my shoes