imma die

I got nothing at that time I'm feeling pain all the time It's like I was being dumb while i was walking around alone and wondering when the help will comes while my money on the ground but I got no ones around. and no ones hearing my sound It's like I'm going to drown, yeah It's like I'm going to drown, ayy darkness on my mind, with the hopeless on it's side then loneliness just came by with their bullets coming to my eye. It's like I just wanna die. I really wanna grab a knife. but then I just realized, there is an afterlife blame it on them now, who the fuck you mean? I don't even know. I might just get lost. let it flow, let me grow. so now I'm just doing doing whatever they're saying while I'm still making some good thing. to pretending that I'm hiding something. dear my soul yeah, please let me control ya, please don't ever let me go deep into the black hole, yeah. I just wanna live, and let me be alive. because you can see imma right now going overdrive, yeah. oh my god, I really wanna live. I'm always asking myself the reason why I'm here. Every time I'm thinking what exactly they can see. is it warm or is it cool to feel with family. I can't tell what it feels like when my momma and my daddy used to hold me as their child. but why, since I was a kid I always get hit by my stepdad. how stupid I am to turn myself into the bad side. because of it ku berfikir sempit you know, I thought that I can get some attention from it. then I was hiding my pain to my friends when I'm at the crib. but it gets more painful when you keep your shit in secret.