Why me?

in my feelings every single day I don't even know what to say all these girls do is play with my heart its torn apart ain't nothing at stake except a heart break my heart aches these girls take away my hope for a new one a real one who gon feel something who ain't gon break my heart I need a new start suicidal thoughts every single day I don't even know what to say I'm just broken and scared taken and used ain't nobody what I've been through its really tough this stuff is rough I get attached to fast then feelings pass they break me like me like glass I can't this no more these thoughts hurt I don't even want to search I'll just broken and then ill start soaking in tears I'm I'm fear I'm In pain my brain messed up hard to think what did I do wrong you led me on for so long doesn't even make sense but we Is in the past tense